Tired of the life that I am living
I am 22 years old. I am so tired of the life I am living. I want to move on, but I am afraid of what might happen to my daughter. I am tired of the same story over and over. I want to try things on my own.
Sometimes I feel like giving up, but then I realise that I haven't achieved anything in my life as yet. Sometimes I feel sorry for the fact that I got pregnant so early. I did not grow up with my father. I have had enough of the life that I am living. I am tired of life itself. I am writing to you with tear in my eyes.
I am assuming that you are living with your child's father and that you are fed up with the relationship. You did not explain why you are so tired of life. As I said, I'm assuming that you are living with a man.
From the tone of your letter, I gather that you are trying to say that if you were to leave this man, you would not be able to take your daughter with you. But I want to tell you that you have to make a decision.
You can allow fear to get the better of you and you may stay in your present condition for a long time and become older and older and not make any progress at all in life. So the time to take action is now
Discuss your problem with your relatives. Ask them for help, but if you are living with the man, do your best not to become pregnant again. Go to evening school and learn a skill or study to get some CXC passes that would qualify you to go to college.
Contact the HEART Trust-NTA. They have programmes that can enable you to start courses at whatever stage you are. Please do not feel sorry for yourself. You can make it if you try.