My man doesn't want to get married
I am with my child's father for nine years. We have a lovely son, but I feel as if I am doing a life sentence for nothing. I feel as if I need an appeal. I am lonely. He is here and I am here.
I would like to get married. I don't want to be home alone. I am tired (of this life). I am getting older, not younger.
You are crying out for help. You are with a man but the relationship isn't going anywhere. Although this man is around, you are still lonely. I understand what you are trying to say.
The communication with this man is not good. You need to tell him how you feel about the relationship. He is taking you for granted. There are many other women in your position and they need to speak up, too.
Nine years in a relationship is a long time. I am sure you thought you would have been married by now to this man. If he ignores you, tell him that you are going to seek professional help, and if he is not prepared to marry you, you will end the relationship with him. It is time to end your silence.