Dear Pastor,

I have to commend you on the wonderful job you are doing. I am a 15-year-old girl who is in third form. I have a boyfriend who is 17 years old. We go to the same high school. We have been together for 8 months.

The problem is that I have been cheating on him with four other guys: a 17-year-old, a 22-year-old, a guy who is 23 and a 30-year-old man. I really love him and he loves me, but since he hooked up with a girl who is going to do his SBA for him, I have been hearing rumours that they are together. The girl is in grade 10. I confronted him and he said it was a lie so I dropped the argument.

my freak

Then a couple of weeks passed and I asked him if he was attracted to her and he said, 'he is a man and she has a big rump and things like that strikes guy's eyes!' So I asked him what am I to him and he said "you are a freak, my freak." "You are different, like a flower with gold petals." For the record I do act freaky. I have written a book to express to him the love I feel and the love I have for him.

The 30-year-old has showed me how much he loves me and I lost my virginity a month before my 15th birthday to him. He is also asking for my hand in marriage. He has his own restaurant and car.

attention from guys

The 23-year-old and I both live in St Catherine. He sends me credit whenever I ask him for it. He has proposed to me too. The 30-year-old lives next door to me. The 17-year-old is always talking about sex and he is not working right now. I am out of control. I have too many boyfriends and I cannot help it. I love the attention from guys but I do really love my high school boyfriend. Sometimes I feel like killing myself. I can't take the pressure of having to lie to all of them, except the 30-year-old about cheating.

I do not have a close relationship with my mother, but I am trying to gain it from her. All of this does not affect my school work at all and my brother is filing for my mom, dad and myself to live in America. I am also addicted to talking about sex and acting it. I have talked to my Guidance Counsellor and teacher, but I can't take going to her every day. I am in love, confused, stressed, upset and misguided and in need of some advice and guidance. I am looking forward to be a veterinarian or a graphic designer and I am studying to get six subjects. The 30-year-old and I had protected sex. He has 9 inches in his pants.

Desperate Teen, St Catherine, Jamaica

Dear Desperate,

May God have mercy on you. I am so sorry for you. What you have written shows how wicked some men are. Here are guys who are much older than you and who know that under the law you cannot consent and yet they are having sexual intercourse with you. They are also messing up your mind by giving you the impression that you are mature enough to deal with sexual matters and fooling you by telling you that they will marry you.

doesn't care

These guys who have had sex with you should be in prison. Your 30-year-old neighbour who owns the restaurant took your virginity before you were 15. He knows better but he doesn't care.

Darling, you have to stop allowing these guys to play around with you. I am sure that you are a good looking girl, but you are not ready to have sex. And all these guys should be just social friends. Learn to say no when they ask you to have sex with them. When these guys tell you how much they love you, remember it is only sex that they want from you.

You have spoken to your guidance counsellor, they will help you. Don't get tired of talking to them. Go to church and try your best to be a very good girl.

Pastor