Wild sex at family house
I am a frequent reader, and I must say, keep up the good work. I'm a 20-year-old male living with my grandparents until I complete my degree in primary education. I am not a Christian, however, I was brought up in an Adventist household.
Growing up in my community, I'd say those were the good old days. I used to visit my neighbours, where I was surrounded by children younger, older and of the same age group as me.
At this particular house lived a sibling family of about five children. I visited quite often and participated in sexual intercourse. Incest was practised among these teenagers as there were three girls and two boys. Furthermore, oral and anal sex was practised between the brothers, and I even joined at times.
Pastor, that happened when I was about eight years of age, and it bothers me. Even other teenage boys and male cousins used to visit this house for sex. I was recently involved with a male, which I really regret. I want to stop, and I am planning to be baptised, but I don't wish to seek repentance until I am over this unclean life. Please give me your advice.
Fathers were not present in this home, and the absence of the mother was because of her mental issues.
You seem to be saying that no adult was in charge of this house and that the children did what they felt they had to do to survive. Illicit sex was practised by the children, and even folks from outside the home visited the house to have sex. The house was run like a whore house.
You started to have sex with men at a very young age. But now you say that you would love to be baptised but do not wish to do so until you have repented.
I suggest, therefore, that you call a family counsellor and make an appointment to discuss these problems.