I want to stop being a homosexual
I am 24. I have been a Christian for 10 years. While growing up, I had always been attracted to girls, but there was this part of me that had a desire for the same sex. While growing up and being active in church, I've had crushes on girls at church and at school. Pastor, I am attracted to beautiful women, but somehow when I got older, after leaving high school, I realised that my desire for the same sex increased.
I started dating men at the age of 21. I found a guy that I love dearly. He is everything to me, but I feel like a lost sheep in a desert. I feel guilty. I have also had thoughts of suicide. Sometimes I feel like I am going to have a nervous breakdown all because of the fact that I am a Christian, but living a homosexual lifestyle.
I am really confused. I have sought help everywhere just to get rid of these feelings I am having for the same sex, but it keeps haunting me. I really have the desire to change and live my life the right way to please God. I made many steps by trying to seek help and I have received help, but it's so hard. Right now I am not sexually active. I haven't had sex with that male partner for almost a year. I blocked him from all my social media accounts. The desire is still there to go back, but I don't want to go back into that kind of lifestyle.
Pastor, please help me. I don't know what to do.
Abstain from having sex with males.
I am sure you have been reading your bible and praying over the matter and you have made positive steps not to continue to be intimate with the man you have had a sexual relationship with. My prayers are with you.