I feel like killing myself
I am writing to you because I need help. I am lost, hopeless and all the other bad things you can think of.
I don't really have a lot of friends because of what I have seen friends do to my family.
Somehow, they still talk to these people like nothing ever happened. I don't trust them to tell them anything.
I don't know what a mother's love feels like nor a father's love. They show other people love. Some days I feel like ending my life because I know I don't deserve any of what they are doing to me.
I really admire how you are able to help people and touch other people's lives. I love your honesty. You just tell it like it is. I would love to talk to you one of these days. I am looking forward to it
I know your case is not hopeless. You did not give your age, but I guess that you are between 17 and 19 and struggling to find yourself. Similar to other of young people, you are experiencing bouts of depression. When things don't go right or go your way, you think nobody loves you, including your parents.
I have a message for you. You are not alone. What I want you to begin to do is love yourself. Think of yourself as number one. Nobody is better than you. Those who are criticising you are not better than you.
Perhaps they might be jealous of you. You see them as enemies, but they should not be seen in that manner. You should consider them as people who do not know better.
What I am trying to tell you is that you should change your attitude to life, in general. As I said earlier, consider yourself as number one. You are God's creation and God will bring you through every trial.
Perhaps your parents do not hug nor say they love you, but don't hold that against them. Their parents perhaps didn't tell them either, but that doesn't mean their parents did not love them that they do not love you. You now know, that when you have your own children, you should hug them and tell that you love them every day.