Haven't recovered from being raped
I'm a 23-year-old Jamaican female living in the US.
I have been a Christian for the past eight years. I've never been in a real relationship, but I was raped when I was 18 by one of my brother's friends.
I was so stressed, and I never had anyone to talk to about it. I even went insane because of what happened.
I don't date or have a boyfriend. It's affecting me, because I see this guy that I really like and I don't know what to do. I am so scared of getting hurt. Everyone wants too much of me.
They all expect me to be that perfect little girl. I am tired of the way my life is. I don't want to be a little girl anymore, and I don't want to put my life on hold because of what my family and other people think.
But I am afraid of getting hurt. It's hard for me to trust men again, and I don't want to do anything out of God's will.
Please, pray for me and give me your advice. I am losing my mind.
I regret hearing that you were raped. It does not appear to me that you reported it.
Anytime a woman is raped, it should be reported, because it is difficult for the woman to live with the thought that she was violated by a man.
You knew the rapist, and although you were 18, you were probably too scared to tell others what had happened.
Although a few years have passed, it is not too late for you to seek therapy. If you have not yet told your brother that his friend raped you, you should do so now and ask him to help you to seek professional help.
Be assured of my prayers, but help yourself by seeking the assistance of a psychologist.