Won't stop cheating on my weak husband
I am currently living in the United States. I have been married twice, first to my children's father and then to another man to obtain legal status.
I am currently reunited with my children's father. I had moved to another state to join him.
The problem I am having is that he has never satisfied me sexually. He has a very small penis and I have a very large appetite.
When I was living in Jamaica, he migrated to further his studies. I got involved with a prominent person and we had sex every chance we got. I enjoyed having sex with him.
While living in the US, the pattern repeated itself. My husband still could not satisfy me. He was a good husband and father, but not a good lover.
We are now reunited and living together and he thinks it will work out just fine, but I can tell you, I will never stop cheating on him.
Pastor, please, do not say that I am bad. But he is like a puppy to me; he is just all over me. I pretend that I am in love with him, but I am not. I am in love with the lifestyle. He is very handsome and he lives in a beautiful house.
The area that he lives in would make my friends envious. I am so afraid to tell my friends that I am back with him.
When we broke up, I played the victim. I told everyone that he was the problem. The only truth was that the sex was just not good.
They say that men with big feet have big penises, but that is not true. On a different level, he has provided my children and me with a beautiful home.
But I can't help but to give him 'bun'. He has asked me not to hurt him again and I told him that I will never do that to him.
I don't love him, and I have told him; I have also told my children daily. He is so simple that he has neglected his family in Jamaica because of me.
They know that I am not good enough for him. He sees me as his everything.
Even though I am a Christian now, I just cannot help giving him 'bun'. I have had three pregnancies and he only knew about one.
That hurts him very bad. I was hurt, too, as I did not know who the father was. I was with three different men, as I was seeking residency.
I eventually had abortions and went on my way as though I was a faithful wife.
I have done well for myself here in the US. I am an accomplished writer of a well-known book. He will be asking me to marry him soon, as he is the marrying type. Can I say he is a fool?
He is highly educated but a big fool when it comes on to me.
If he had a bigger penis, I would be faithful. I will eventually marry him and ruin his family, and then take his house and ruin him again.
I am not bragging, but I don't see a future with him.
May God have mercy on your soul. You are so iniquitous. You hate this man to the core. Perhaps you are the worst pretender. I don't know if you realise that you are a sex addict.
You said that you have been having sex with different men and you got pregnant three times and didn't even know who impregnated you.
You don't love this man, but neither do you love your life. If you loved your life, you wouldn't have unprotected sex.
You want to bring this man to nothing, but I want to warn you that God is not sleeping and God will deal with you in his own time.
Why are you so proud of your wickedness? What do you hope to gain, apart from the material things that this man must share with you under the law if both of you were to be married?
I am going to ask you to leave this man. Don't brag about the power you have over this man. God's power is greater than yours, so I beg you to repent and do what is right.
You know that you are going to continue to cheat, so please, do not remarry this man.